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Tuesday, 03 November 2009

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    The Bridge
    By Melanie Fiona
    It Kills Me
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    So much on my mind...and No one worth venting to...

    Sooooo Wassup Subscribers??? I've truly missed you guys!!!!

         I know! I know! I haven't kept my promise by keeping ya'll updated with my life, but I've been so busy and so much has just been going on in my life. Well first off, I'm supposed to be doing a project right now that's due tomorrow, but I really don't know how to do it and it's due at the end of class soooo I'm just gonna blog for right now. Well I currently feel like I have no one worth talking to about how I feel about certain stuff. There was one person in my life named Jahiem Santana that I would tell EVERY little thing and detail about my life and after I told him, I would feel better and everything would be okay. But now since I can't get in contact with him I just keep going on and on about how I feel about certain things. When I used to tell J all of my problems, I wouldn't talk about them anymore to anyone else, it was said and done. But now if I have a problem with something, I keep telling it over and over again to people I consider my friends, but I never get that relief that I've said enough. I can't explain it, really, I guess I'm just weird and I can accept that. Sooooo Junior year started in college and everything was all GOOD, of course. I met this very attractive new guy named Antony, he's like 23, and basically he's a junior in college cause he left college and just now he's coming back to finish. He's madd nice and sweet and tall and attractive and I would so pursue him, but there's only one thing! I THINK HE'S GAY!!!!!!! He's not really feminine, but he kinda is. He's been in Cali for a minute and he probably did a good bit of exploring...if you know what I mean... One time I was over at his place and he made a gay ass comment on the phone to one of his friends in Cali. He said, "Tell that faggot ass nigga to suck my dick when I get back." I'm sitting there thinking like, "Uhhh, okay...". So then the next day we chill for a bit or whateva and we had the radio on and I asked him what was the name of this song on that was playing, and he said, "I don't know. I ayn gay." ::RED FLAG:: Already defending he ayn gay and I haven't accused him of being. So I mentioned the gay ass comment he had made the other day about the "faggot ass" dude, and he was like, "Yeahhhh, I was talking about some old ass gay man who think he still got it [It meaning GAME]...You gotta get in where you fit in." ::Red Flag:: Whoaaaaa! I couldn't believe what I was hearing, but I pretended he didn't just say what I thought he said. Then he called Trey Songz gay. [Trey Songz is CLEARLY not GAY!] Then I was like, "How you know Trey Songz gay?". He replied, "Cause I know what a gay dude looks like." like that shit was just some common knowledge that a straight guy would have. I mean, yeah a straight dude can obviously point out a gay dude that's flaming, but to pick out a regular ass dude like Trey Songz who doesn't appear to be GAY is a WHOLE 'NOTHER LEVEL!  "Whoaaaa!!! Huh?!?!?" was my reaction. It takes a GAY to know a GAY and clearly you can identify your own kind. Now, I am no way against gays, I'm just pointing out this dude's "tendencies". So Iono, I gotta do more investigation. I ayn gonna write him off so easily. But most likely, if I think he's gay, he's probably and most likely gay, but I'm really tryna give him the benefit of doubt. It was one day when me and Antony had went somewhere together and some dude that I knew spotted me and he texted me to basically ask was Antony my boyfriend and that he wanted to take it to another level than just friends. He's fine, too!!! He's a plus plus plus! I don't know him too much, but I'm willingly to get to know him. His name is Kyle and he is actually from where I live and I've known him since my freshman year, but he had a girlfriend then, soooo yeahhhhh, the move for "us" to happen was definitely not gonna happen cause I am not a HOME WREcker! Even though someone told me, "You can't steal someone who's already gone....". I just feel like I should be finding my husband now because I think time is definitely running out for me, even though, I'm only 19! lol! Craziness, but it's how I feel. Even though, I know that statistically, men don't get married around 27-28 years old so I guess I gotta while, but I wanna have children before I'm age 30. I do NOT wanna be an old mother!

          Welllll let's see, I got invited into 3 honor societies, made it into 1 outta 3! Lol. I, initially made into 2, but it went Oh So Wrong and I'ma let ya'll know how it went wrong! I basically got screwed over. So I made into the intiate process of Phi Sigma Pi, a national Honor Fraternity. I had to go through a process with 11 other people in a matter of 6 weeks. The payments were in 3 installments, 1st payment: $67.00 (non refundable), 2nd payment: $66.50 (refundable), 3rd payment: $66.50.  We also had to raise $50/per initaite, have a scrap book, perform one community service event, do a retreat skit, and do a social event for the brothers of the fraternity.

    Reasons for dismissal:

    • Not wearing pledge pin Monday-Friday from 8am-5pm and at all other Phi Sigma Pi meetings
    • Not scoring the required score on the quizzes, which was 80% or above, and on the National quiz 85%.
    • Not having your 4 interviews. (You were required to interview 4 Brothers a week that were already in the fraternity)
    • Not paying dues on scheduled time.
    • Not attending the retreat (which you had to attend to become intitated)
    • Any reasons that the Brothers thought you were unfit for the fraternity.
    I did everything I was supposed to do. I was late for the very first meeting. I was late for the first scheduled payment, but I was NOT the only one who had done this. There were two other people who had done the things I had done. I wore my pledge pin every day on scheduled time. I had my 4 interviews a week. I had been to every mandatory and non-mandatory meeting. I scored the required score on all of my quizzes. And I didn't make it to the retreat because I got dismissed after the 2nd payment. 4 weeks I had been in this process, and only basically one week left, I got dismissed, and it really did put a dent in me because all the time and money I had put into this one organization I could not get back and they said I was rude when asking for interviews and non-chalant about the process. There were people who did NOT come to all of our non-mandatory meetings. I had met with these people when I had things to do like projects, homework, and studying for test. I kept telling this one girl on my line that it really was effecting my study habits and how much of my work I would get done and as she tells me, she's behind in her work in one of our classes. I was literally on the phone talking to my mother about the whole process, telling her about what we had to do and this and that, just basically filling her in about how everything is going. Even she could tell you that I was not nonchalant as they claim that I was. I was not happy about the decision that they had made and I did contact the national offices of Phi Sigma Pi and I wrote:

    Dear Ms Abbi McFarlane, 
     
    My name is Brittne' Thomas. I was in the Alpha Delta initiate class in the Gamma Gamma Chapter of Phi Sigma Pi at Georgia Southern University. My mother, Tamela Brown, has already spoken to Ms. Anika Jackson (Director of Member Services), but I felt like I should e-mail you myself to discuss my feelings about my dismissal from the membership intake process. I feel that my dismissal was very unfair and somewhat subjective. Alicia Wilkins, the Initiate Advisory, is the person who told me that I was dismissed. She said the reasons for my dismissal was that I was rude and I was inconsiderate of people's time because I used the phrase, "I'm available at...", instead of "My schedule is..." when I was asking for interviews from the brothers. She says that another reason was because I was “nonchalant” about the whole process. I don't understand how I was being nonchalant when I showed up to every meeting as required, paid my dues on time, and participated in all the fundraiser and community service projects as required with my class. I put in an excessive amount of time in the last four weeks with this process.  Also, my mother is not thrilled about possibly losing her money either. These are some examples of how my dedication was demonstrated. I took off work to go to the community service project and I even left work to go interview one of the brothers knowing that I could be fired from my job, but I made a decision to go interview a brother to accommodate his schedule  solely without compromise.
     

    When at the meetings, Alicia would mention the interview books, but she never was specific about what was wrong with them and she never pulled me to the side to let me know what I was doing wrong, therefore, I assumed my interview book was written in the correct form. My Big was Whitney Causey, she was supposed to be my mentor through my process and supposed to help me and support me. She did mention that some of the brothers said that I was rude when I asked for interviews, but when I asked her why did they feel like that, she replied that she really didn't know but to be at ease because she too had been called rude  unjustly so by some of the brothers when she was in my shoes. She just told me to not be rude.  Honestly, I did not know that I was being rude about anything. I would say, "Hello [name]. My name is Brittne' Thomas. I was calling to see when you were available for an interview”…… and pretty much just go by the script.  

    Alicia also told me that the Brothers voted me out, but as I have been asking the brothers and my fellow initiates, I found out that all of the brothers were not there to vote on me being eliminated out of the process. Some of the Brothers didn't even know that I was dismissed. I can honestly say that if there was something I did wrong, I did not know WHAT I did wrong. Every time they said I did something wrong, they never corrected me, or never told me exactly what I did wrong. Some of the Brothers would also twist up my words and tell my fellow initiates things to make it seem like I was saying something negative. It was like they were trying to divide and conquer us.  I felt like some of them were playing mind games.  If I was very nonchalant about this whole process, I would not take this much time and energy to even make a complaint. I feel like there was favoritism amongst my fellow initiates and the Brothers, meaning the Brothers favored some of the initiates more than the others.  
     

    I have spent so much time and energy and money into this one organization. More than I have any organization I was ever involved in. It really did upset me that they dismissed me a week before everything was due and basically over. I tried to contact my Big that day of my dismissal and she never got back in contact with me, but when I did finally see her, her reaction was not very nice. She gave me a smile, more like a malicious smirk. And I don't think she would have spoken to me had I not said “hi “first. I really do feel like she voted against me, but I do not know for sure. I feel like she wasn't a good Big, either and she wasn't much of a mentor or guide for me. It's like she felt it was funny that I got eliminated out.  

    Brittney Lemon, who was one of my fellow initiates, was also voted out by the Brothers, but her Big was not there to defend her at the voting, and she couldn't believe that they had eliminated her little from the process. Brittney Lemon got an entirely different reaction from her Big, than the kind of reaction I got from my Big. It would be a honor to be allowed to complete the membership intake process so that I can be initiated into Phi Sigma Pi. I feel like it is a wonderful organization to join and it does promote scholarship, leadership skills and fellowship. These are three of the most valuable assets during undergraduate years and beyond. I am definitely looking forward to continuing to working with the organization beyond my undergraduate years.  I’m heavily influenced by my mother because she has joined sororities and other organization as an undergrad and remain active within those organizations to this day.   

    I do appreciate your time in looking into this matter.

     
    Thank you, 
    Brittne' Thomas

    And she replied back:

    Hi Brittne’,

     

    Thank you for emailing. I appreciate you taking the time to inform me of your situation. I have been in contact with Cassandra, the President of the Gamma Gamma Chapter, about the situation, however, on a National level, we do not interfere with the membership decisions made by a Chapter. If you have concerns about the Initiation program (or suggestions for how to improve it), I strongly suggest that you send those to me and I can pass those along to the Chapter.

     

    I am really happy to hear you are so enthusiastic about Phi Sigma Pi and its ideals. Rushing again next semester might be a great option for you. There are plenty of Brothers within our organization who rushed twice.

     

    Concerning the money you paid, the Chapter does have a policy about refunds and you will be receiving a check for a partial refund soon. The Recruitment and Initiate Advisors will also be contacting you to further explain the release process and to answer any questions you may have.

     

    Thank you again for contacting me.

     

    Fraternally,

     

    Abbi MacFarlane
    Region Consultant

    Phi Sigma Pi National Honor Fraternity
    Discover Your Potential. 
    Learn.  Inspire.  Lead.

         Soooo basically, I had just got FUCKED over! The people eliminated me simply because some of them did not like me. I was in no way rude to them. I am one of the friendliest, nicest, and most helpful person ever and I will never truly understand what I did wrong to get dismissed. Ask any of my professors, fellow classmates, friends, and family. These are people who have been known me more than what these people in the organization know about me. And  the lady had the fucking nerve to RUSH again! DA FUCK! I lost so much fucking money in this process and time that I can never get back! If you were to ask me, I would say don't join any fuckin organization that you are not guaranteed to be in because even if you do everything you're supposed to do, they can still eliminate you even if it's not majority of them who don't like you. Join organizations that you will be guaranteed in and that you are truly passionate about because I truly told this woman that I wasted a lot of money into this one orgazation and she did not care! I'm so against it!


    On another note...Well...I'ma save the rest for another day, but this is all I needed to get out today! Reply back! I need feedback please!

    *B Fab*



Monday, 16 February 2009

  • I'm Not Even Going To Lie

    Soooo right now I'm in the library at school supposed to be working on my outline that's due tomorrow for my speech, but as you can tell, I AM NOT! lol. Welll my Valentines Day was nothing special. It was just a regular day for me, but that's no biggie. I'm used to it. I've never had a real Valentines, anyway. My mother is always my Valentine. I actually worked doing the photography thing at a party that night and I made a quick $120 from 3 events this weekend so I'm not really complaining about it.

    I have so much work to do with all these projects and tests and quizzes coming up and I'm just so frustrated and now I'm sleepy and I want to go and take a nap, but I can't because I have to study. Soooo my supposed to be bestie, Hannah, is still acting funny. Whenever she sees me she says hey and keeps walking. No time for small talk like usual. Toni is fake as hell. I never mentioned Toni before, but I'm going to tell ya'll who she is. She is a girl who used to go here freshmen year, and decided to take a semester off and now she's back this semester. She is soooo fake because when she first got here, me and her were all buddy buddy and cool and then after that whole situation went down with me and Hannah, she disassociated herself with me, too, but at first she was mad because of what Hannah had did. Then when Hannah came back, she was all buddy buddy with Hannah, but she still talks shit about Hannah all the time. That's just the type of person she is. I haven't really seen her since that one time when I went over to her place to go see Hannah. I tried to be the bigger person and actually try to end the whole fighting/feuding situation, but it really didn't change the whole feel of the situation because Hannah still acts funny towards me. The only person that doesn't act funny towards me is Emnet (Hannah's cousin) so I think one day I'm just gonna sit down and talk to her about the whole situation cause the shit is stupid and I don't even know why I'm worried about it cause Hannah has obviously moved on to new friends and I have also, but not to the point where I actually go out with my new friends. One of my friends said if me and her can't sit and talk about it then we shouldn't be friends, but honestly I do want to talk about and I want to get her alone, not with Toni in the picture because she's just too much and plus she isn't anybody to me and I could give a fuck less if I talk or see her ever again. That's how irrelevant she is to me.  Soooo my question is, "How do I approach Hannah with out seeming like I'm attacking her?" Cause ya'll, I'm really not the type to hold grudges. I was over that shit in a week tops! And obviously she not over the shit. I feel like if we're friends, we should be able to argue and then at the end of the day we still cool. What she did was wrong, but then again, it wasn't that serious to where I won't ever talk to her again.




Wednesday, 28 January 2009

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    Special Occasion
    By Bobby Valentino
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    It's been a while...I know

    What's good readers and subscribers???

           I know it's been a while since I've blogged. Please forgive me. Wellllll ya'll all know how my New Years came in. It was terrible. I just feel like the way I brought the New Year in would reflect on how my whole year would actually go. I'm currently not speaking to Hannah as of right now cause of something that happened last week where there was a lot of misunderstanding between us. She hasn't hit me up since then, but I have hit her up and she didn't even have a decency to text me back which I thought was pretty rude so I'm kinda ticked off about it. If ya'll want me to elaborate on the situation about what happened between us, I will gladly elaborate, but only IF YOU ASK! Soooo I mean this week has been a pretty good week for me. I've actually chilled with alotta dudes this week and other ppl! I got to chill with my MAIN NIGGA! HATTRESS! LOL I feel like I can talk to him about anything. He's like one of my best friend's! He gives GREAT ADVICE! I'm actually getting a lot of photography deals for events at the clubs and model groups so I'm excited about that. I'm making extra money which is wassup! I'm currently enrolled in six classes for this semester: History of Costume, Understanding Aesthetics, Fashion Fundamentals, U.S. History, World Literature, and Public Speaking. I'm planning to make all A's in my fashion classes since it is my major and I'm already predicting a B in my Public Speaking especially since I currently have a C average in that class.

          Soooo my best best best best friend ever name is Jahiem Santana!!! I love him to death and would do anything for him. I've known him since I was 13 and I'm 19 now (so that makes it 6 years) =]! When we were younger we used to talk everyday, all day!!! But now that we are older, we have more responsibilities and we talk sometimes. I haven't really got to talk to him as much as I would like and I don't/can't hit him up cause sometimes he's not "available" or "accessible" to me so I wait for him to hit me up. So he basically controls when we talk and I hate it, but oh well! We at least talk once or twice a week, but coming from everyday to once or twice a week is a BIG change for me  even though sometimes conversation is dead between us. I still just like to know he's accessible to me at that time, but yeahhhh. I just had to mention him to ya'll cause I mean, he's my bestest friend ever and I love him like no other!

    -B* Fab



Saturday, 10 January 2009

Friday, 09 January 2009

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    • Name: Brittne'
    • Country: United States
    • State: Georgia
    • Metro: Macon
    • Birthday: 11/22/1989
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 3/5/2005

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  • Hmm let's see! My name is Brittne'! I'm 19 and 5'10"! I'm a sophomore in college! My major is Fashion Merchandising! I'm single and have been for a good while! I'm from Georgia and most of all I'm ABSOLUTELY *FABULOUS!

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  • MusingsOfAnAlmostSocio
    Happy Valentine's Day! A short poem just for you :)Single and FABULOUS is she, Dreaming of going across the sea. She’s full of sass and energy, Nothing can contain her overflowing glee!
  • NViedByMany1122
    @XxSunshineOVErMelonXx - No prob girl!
  • XxSunshineOVErMelonXx
    Thanx so much for adding me as a friend!
  • BlkBoldBeautiful
    @NViedByMany1122 - hahaha. no worries; in a few days youll be zipping right through it and blogging/pulsing/updating daily. xanga will = life. hahaha. _Shani
  • hopelessli_devoted
    @NViedByMany1122 - hey, i go to the fashion institute of tech. in nyc.
  • NViedByMany1122
    @BlkBoldBeautiful - Thanks girl!!! I'm tryna get as many friends I can! Xanga is so complicated to use to me, but I guess I will just have to figure it out!
  • NViedByMany1122
    @hopelessli_devoted - Ohhhh cool! Well I don't really go to a fashion or art institute like I would like to, but I go to Georgia Southern. What about you?
  • hopelessli_devoted
    hi! thanks for wanting to be my friend! i see you're a fashion merchandising major.. so am i!!! what school do you go to? --deanna
  • BlkBoldBeautiful
    hey! thanks so much for the invite! ill be sure to read as many of your blogs as possible! stay breezy. -shani